We miss you
Silence on the merry go. Nobody say something after… what had happened. The happiness, with had ever filled the ship, has gone. Maybe forever. Because nobody want’s to be happy. Because of our captain. Yes Luffy. We all miss you. So badly. Since you had fallen for us, no one speaks. Everyone must go on with it in his own way. Like me. There are no feelings anymore. Without you, there is no reason to go on. Our dreams lost there meaning, because you are not there to life them with us. I think you didn’t know how much you meant to us. More than everything. Zolo had become more quiet than he was before. He and Sanji wanted to climb the cliff and we had to stop them. Zolo was so angry, that he couldn’t help you, that he smashed two of his swords on the rocks and it was the first time I saw him crying. Now, he lay against the sheaphead of the merry go and star with empty eyes over the ocean. The same way as Usopp. His usually so liveable eyes are only sad now. He become so quiet, that we really think, he is silent. Not only one lie came over his lips. He sits on the deck and look true the ground. Sanji stopped flirting with me and Robin. He cut himself more than one time, as he cocked. That never happened in the past. Sometimes I see his shoulders shaking, if he is cocking. Mostly he forget something and his meals are inedible now. Chopper again started to fear humans and hide between the mandarin trees. But if he is with us, he always pull his head into his face. One or two times I heard him mutter your name, Luffy. Robin sit only in her bed and look into the air. I want to talk to her, but she doesn’t talk. There are only tears in her eyes every time. Now and then there was a sob from her side. Franky is the only one, who does really something on the ship. But I think, that he only repair the ship to distract himself. You see. Everyone changed since you are gone. Inclusive me. And everyone was crying. Robin and me, we started crying at first. Chopper and Usopp did it also. Usopp screamed your name and didn’t want to believe. I saw tear drops onto the ground before Franky, as he held his head down. Zolo and Sanji didn’t want to cry, but they done it in the darkness, where no one could see them. With you, our life is gone. We don’t want to live without you. Why couldn’t you understand? If we fight with you till the end, you would probably be alive. Why are you gone? We miss you so much. Couldn’t you come back to us? It would be better for all of us. Without you, we can’t sail on. We don’t want to. We would rather be dead, than stay without you. Why didn’t you let us leave this world with you. With me. Tears roll down my skin. I look around the ship and then, I take a decision.
