The Pain within von _Severus_ (Severus SnapexSirius Black) ================================================================================ Kapitel 10: Chapter 10: Liar ---------------------------- Chapter 10 “...You wanna know what’s up Remus?” Sirius asked, smiling at the Slytherin. “I’ll tell you.” He softly kissed Severus again, and laid his forehead against Severus’. “I love you.” It was quiet for what seemed almost like an eternity to Severus. He couldn’t believe his ears. Sirius had just said... Dear Lord, he had to be hallucinating! Sirius just smiled at him, softly kissing his forehead. “Don’t look at me like that Sev... you look like I said something bad.” then he looked over to Remus “Remus, I know I can’t make you not tell this to James and Peter... but... I would really appreciate it, if you wouldn’t.” Remus just looked at Sirius for a while and then said “Sirius, I won’t tell anyone. You are my friend, and even if I can’t really understand you, you will always be my friend. And if you love Severus, well then I want to get to know him, because he has to be very special.” Severus, who was still shocked, just watched Remus walk off, and looked back at Sirius. “Sirius... uhm... I...” But Sirius hushed him with another kiss. “You don’t have to say it...” he whispered. “Take all the time you need... we don’t have to be in a relationship either. I just want to spend more time with you, and show you that what I say is true.” Severus nodded in confusion, not knowing what to do. Sirius seemed to understand that he wasn’t able to say anything. So they both just stood there for a little while, and then went back to the castle together. Severus was confused... but despite everything... the confession that Sirius had made, made him feel happier then ever before in his life. The next days past, and Severus felt more peaceful by the day. He spent a lot of his time with Sirius. Remus covered for them, and Severus grew more and more fond of the blond Gryffindor. Lucius visited him a few times, but didn’t do anything more to make Severus feel uncomfortable. Severus wished that it would stay this peaceful forever... It was a Saturday, and night was falling, as Severus walked along an empty corridor. He had lost his quill somewhere along the way, as he was leaving from the Library. Since it was his favorite quill, he decided to walk back and look for it. Maybe he was lucky and found it. As he took a turn at the corner of the way, he suddenly froze. No... was his only thought. It couldn’t be. He was being tricked. Tears filled his eyes as he stood there, watching as Sirius Black, the boy who said he loved him, was pushing a other Gryffindor against the wall, wildly kissing him. Severus swallowed hard, then turned and quickly walked away. Sirius hadn’t even noticed... Severus started running, faster and faster, not caring where his feet would carry him. All he wanted is to get as far away form Sirius as he could. He ran out of the Castel, and finally stopped as he got to the lake. He fell to his knees, shaking and crying. “Liar!” he screamed into the darkness of the night. “Liar...” Salty Tears fell into the grass, as he laid down, defeated and full of sorrow. “Liar...” The Slytherin just laid there for a while, and he would have stayed there all night if two strong arms hadn’t picked him up, and carried him away. Severus clung to the person, sobbing once in a while. He was brought back into his room, and carefully laid on the bed. “Hush my little Snake.” Lucius whispered, softly stroking the black hair. “Hush. Do not cry. I will take care of you from now on. I promise.” the blond smiled at Severus, and gave Severus a chaste kiss on the fore head. “And know... sleep.” Severus just sniffed, and then nodded, while Lucius softly wiped his tears away. He closed his eyes, and tried to fall asleep, but couldn’t. Helplessly, he looked up to Lucius, und smiled a little, and then laid down next to him. The black haired Slytherin immediately snuggled against the strong chest of the older Boy, and closed his eyes again. Under Lucius soft stroking and soothing words, Severus finally fell asleep. The next morning, Severus woke up to find his bed empty. He slowly sat up, and looked for Lucius. Maybe he had gone...? Somehow it made Severus feel bad. As he looked at the clock he realized that it was early in the morning, so nobody would be awake. He still couldn’t believe what he had seen the night before. The picture of Sirius kissing someone else, only day’s after he had told him he loved him seemed to burn into his mind. Severus couldn’t stop thinking about it. He was about to cry again, but held the tears back. It’s okay he thought to himself It’s just normal... Everybody leaves me... I’ll get over it... it’s okay... Slowly he got up, got some clean clothes and walked to the bathroom. He had to shower... As he opened the door to the community bath, he was surprised to see that there was already somebody under one of the showers. As he took a closer look, he recognized Lucius. The Slytherin was washing his long hair, back turned to Severus. The Body of the blond was absolute flawless. Severus didn’t think he had ever seen such a perfect body. Toned muscles, skin that looked like silk... Severus swallowed hard and was about to leave when Lucius noticed him. “Good Morning Severus.” he smiled, as he turned, now showing Severus everything he had. Severus blushed violently, and muttered a quick “Good morning” as he turned away to leave. Lucius chuckled a little and asked “Aren’t you going to shower Severus?” of course he knew that Severus was embarrassed, and he loved to play with him a little. “Come, I’ll help you undress...” The blond stepped out of the water, and walked toward Severus, who swallowed hard. Lucius started undressing the black haired boy gently, slipping each peace of clothing off of him carefully, until Severus was only standing there in his Boxers. Lucius sighted at the look of the scars on Severus arm, and softly stroked the pale arms of the boy. “Take off your Boxer’s and shower~” he smiled a little at Severus, got a towel and wrapped it around his hips, before leaving the bathroom. Severus sighted a little, as he watched Lucius walk away. The sight of the scars had probably scared him away... It always did. After people saw his scars, almost all of them ran or got all uncomfortable... if they even cared to talk to him at all. Only one person hadn’t been driven away by them... The black haired Slytherin quickly shook his head, as if he was trying to get the picture out of his head. He buried it deep inside of himself, locking it away with his feelings... Something that Severus had learned to do over the years, and he had become quite good at him. He took off his underwear and through it to the rest of his clothes, stepping into one of the multiple showers in the room. The hot water ran over his body, soothing some of his pain... but he couldn’t stay long. The other Slytherins were waking, at it was time for him to get dressed and leave. Even if they stopped picking on him... he still didn’t feel well around them. He got out of the shower, dried himself with a towel and got dressed. With a quick swing of his wand, his hair was dry, and he was ready to go. He walked out of the dungeons, on his way to the library as the one person he really didn’t want to see walked right into his arms. “Sev!” Sirius smiled, and waved at him. “What’s up? You wanna hang out?” Severus bit his lip. Should he say something...? Or should he just let it pass...? But he couldn’t stop thinking about Sirius kissing that boy, touching him... It broke his heart. So all he said was “No.” and quickly passed by him. Sirius blinked twice, as Severus just passed him by, not even greeting him. He quickly ran after him, and started walking next to him “What? Why? What’s wrong?” Suddenly, Severus couldn’t take it anymore. He felt like he was going to explode. “...You want to know what’s wrong?” he asked quietly, looking at Sirius with the coldest eyes he had ever had. “Yeah, of course Sev.” Sirius said, looking at him with a riddled face. “You know I’m always there for you.” Severus flinched. “...I saw you.” he whispered under his breath, not looking at Sirius anymore. “...I saw you with him.” Sirius swallowed and said “Severus I... It wasn’t what you think, I can explain.” “Save it!” Severus hissed. “You are a liar Sirius Black. I was a fool to trust you. You bloody Gryffindor’s...” he boy shook his head “How did I ever believe you...?” and with that he walked away. But of course, Sirius didn’t let go so fast. Again he followed Severus and said “Come on Sev, please... Let me explain! Let’s talk about this!” Severus gripped his wand and turned around to Sirius once more. “I. said. save. it.” he growled. “I don’t want to talk to you!” Just as Sirius was about to say something, Lucius walked up to Severus, and gently took his hand. “Come my love. Let us leave.” Lucius grinned at the Gryffindor. “We shall not argue with a dog.” and with that he pulled Severus with him. Sirius couldn’t believe his eyes. He was going to have to do something... something, that would make Severus forgive him. And so he started planning... So, this is the end of chapter 10~ Sorry it’s so short and stuff, but my final exams are coming up, so I’m going to have to take a break from writing for a while. I hope you enjoyed it. Hosted by Animexx e.V. (http://www.animexx.de)