Justice von Sangre ================================================================================ Kapitel 1: The greatest Loss ---------------------------- i could rescue her! she is hurt but alive,and that's all that matters to me right now.i can see the expression on her face...so frightened...afraid to loose someone close to her.it honours me that she is shedding tears for me.i wasn't very nice to her,after all,but i tried to make her a good navy officer...i think i was successfull! she wipes the blood off my face,tells me to hold on...but there's nothing left to hold on! i can hardly breathe...my vision is blurred...too much blood...everywhere dead bodies...friends...collegues... i close my eyes and focus on the events of the last few days.the goddamn pirates eliminated most of my crew.their captain is not like normal pirates...i know him...we've been rivals for years!!now he proved to be stronger than me...he defeated me and not even my smokepowers could help me! i'm just glad that i could convince him to let tashigi live.she's too young to die...has seen almost nothing of the world!! aaah...the pain gets worse!damn him!! he should have cut my head off instead of letting me bleed to death.DAMN HIM!! sighing,i open my eyes again to look at the young lieutnant. she is crying like a baby,ordering me to survive! i just have to smirk...she's ordering ME to survive...i'm her superior after all...yes,i'm still captain smoker...i'm still alive...alive!! __________________________________ he's fading away! he protected me,fought against this monster so i could survive...and now i'll probably loose him because of this shit!!the pirate captain made sure that my captain won’t survive,that he’ll die today! How cruel! I wanted to fight against this monster,wanted to take revenge on him…but he just laughed at me and told me to go back to my mommy!i’m to weak to fight…I know,but I’d rather die than letting this pirate just murder more and more friends. A change in my captains body caught my attention.there’s something missing…something important!i place my head on his chest…and listen. frightened I realize that his heart is beating way too slow.his eyes are closed and his breathing so low that his chest is hardly moving. He’s dying…dying in my arms and there’s nothing I can do to help him! “don’t you die on me, captain!you are not allowed to die!!i ORDER you to survive” he smirks…I can see the few remaining teeth in his mouth…blood, everywhere on his body! I can’t stop myself from crying…just like a baby! But nobody could blame me for this! I’m about to loose someone close to me…someone I learned to respect and cherish…I’m about to loose my captain…Captain Smoker, the white Chaser!! I can feel his last heartbeat…the life in his veins runs cold…his smile fades! His whole body goes limb and feels colder somehow. i hug him close to me, not wanting to ever let go! “AND THIS YOU CALL JUSTICE AT ANY PRICE?!!it’s not fair…you said you’d make me a captain and now you just left me!!” I close my eyes. Rain is falling from the darkened sky, washing away all the blood…washing away the hope I clung to all my life. thin trickles of blood are running down my captains chin,admixing with the raindrops. my clothes are already drenched in water and blood but I don’t care.there’s nothing left to care about….there is nothing left. I abandon all hope…abandon love,honor,justice…abandon everything dear to me…but I’ll never abandon the navy! Life goes on though it is hardly livable…and sometimes I’ll become captain myself and then I’ll kill the monster who killed smoker…I’ll track him down and take revenge! For Justice! For Captain Smoker! Kapitel 2: Sequel: A Daughter's Lament -------------------------------------- Tashigi was standing in front of a small tombstone on the nearly empty graveyard. It was early evening and heavy clouds kept the last, still warm summer-sunrays away from this joyless place. Nothing more than a single candle and a white lily were decoration for the grave of Tashigi-Taisa’s former superior. The last ten years had passed so incredibly quickly. It felt like yesterday, that she had been sitting here and cried because of the loss of her beloved friend…her beloved captain. She had never realized how much he really meant for her, at least not until he was gone. Their relationship had been a tender one, but they had never declared their love to each other. Thanks to the fraternization rule, it was forbidden for a Taisa to date his Socho. Smoker, however, didn’t give a damn about all these rules, or so he had said all the time. It was hard for a Taisa to take care of a crew, to fight against pirates and arrest them. Only now, that Tashigi held this rank herself, she had started to know what pressure Smoker must have been under. Now she could finally understand why he had acted in the ways he did back then…but unfortunately this knowledge came too late. After a year of a secret almost-relationship, they had split up and started being nothing more than colleagues again. It was good this way! They still helped and trusted each other, but they spent the nights in their own beds…alone! This colleagueship didn’t last longer than 2 months. With a tear in her eyes, Tashigi remembered the day Smoker died precisely 60 days after they had split up. It had been the worst day in her life. Softly weeping, the now 31-years-old Taisa fell down on her knees. Why did he have to die? Suddenly, Tashigi felt a small, yet warm hand on her back. She turned her head and looked into the big, grey-blue eyes of a girl, her daughter. She was ten years old and quite tall for her age, wore her white-blue hair loose, and there was, like always, a gentle smile on her face. It had been 3 weeks after Smoker’s death that she had found out, that she was pregnant. Back then it felt like dying to know, that she’d have to raise a child alone. “Haze, I’m so sorry…so incredible sorry! You shouldn’t see me like this! This is all so wrong! You shouldn’t have to grow up without knowing your father…without having seen him at least once! I…I guess I did it all wrong…forgive me please!” Sobbing, Tashigi hugged her daughter, while her fingers softly stroked over the child’s silken hair. “Mom, don’t cry, please! It’s…it’s not your fault! Daddy died as a hero to save our lives! You told me this every night as a bedtime story, when I was younger! I don’t know him and so I can’t really miss him…but I miss the hero out of these stories, who made you happy! And I admit that I’d really like to know what it is like to have a father!” Young Haze returned her mother’s hug. There were no tears in her eyes. The girl had learned years ago, that tears only made everything worse. Whenever she had cried, her mother would blame herself for this, so she just stopped sheathing tears and kept everything to herself. Showing emotions was dangerous for others who mightn’t be able to deal with them. “You are far to mature for a girl your age, Haze! And you remind me so much of your father…” Tashigi wiped the tears away and blew out the single candle on Smoker’s grave. The world was wrapped in darkness and the cold autumn breeze made the navy-officer and her daughter shiver. It was time to go. Slowly the woman got to her feet, after placing a gentle kiss on the cool tombstone. She grabbed Haze’s hand and left the graveyard. Small raindrops were falling from the cloudy sky now, reminding Tashigi of all the tears shed by mothers and wives who had lost their sons and husbands in war. With a last, silent prayer, Tashigi-Taisa, captain of a fleet of navy ships, mother of Haze and former lover of the greatest navy-officer ever, left this silent place of loss, knowing, that she would return sometime to the one she had loved, but lost on a day like today. Next to her, the young girl was softly humming a song, a happy tune she had learned from other kids, but now, it sounded more like a lament. A lament of a daughter who never got to meet her father. Hosted by Animexx e.V. (http://www.animexx.de)